So High by Nicole Walker
As a balloon
I am not as strong
As you think I am
Nor am I as brave
I’m not kind or clever
I just smile and wave
I don’t know where
And I have nothing to say
I just have to keep moving
So meet me on my way
It would be nice
To hold your hand
And take you with me
This could be something
We both get to see
But I don’t where
I only know the way
I just have to keep moving
So come with me on my way
Anyone. But You
I can say no to anyone but you
Places I don't want to go
People I don't want to see
Things I don't want to do
If you want me to
Because I can say no to anyone but you
That people are weak
That no one is brave
That people can't change
And you believe
That pain is pride
That hurt could help
That the sky will die
But I believe
That I could fly
So high, so high
So far away
To somewhere safe
To somewhere free
Where we could be
Just you and me
-- Inspired by Above the Clouds - Amies
Black Butterflies, Sonnet 9
Don't get comfortable
Even though the bed is warm
This is not your home
Sleep on the floor
Or sleep in your car
Because this is not your home
You're not welcomed
You're not loved
Remember you're all alone
Your arms are empty
The world is cold
You're doomed to roam
Don't ask him to come
He won't want to
He'll also leave you alone
He'll always leave you alone
You'll always be alone
You'll never find a home
Black Butterflies; Let's Pretend
You like make-believe and butterflies? No.
You don't want to believe in what you know.
Pretend we're happy so long as I smile,
Though, it feels like I've died for a while.
You don't care, you won't care. I know that truth.
Because I know I mean nothing to you.
You can pretend, I know that you will
Keep going to see how long it takes to heal.
Black Butterflies; Loveless Leach
It was clear now that you didn't love me.
In love you can't be as mean as you'd be.
You demanded all of me without words,
And expected me to know what you'd need.
If I was wrong, or forgot you'd leave me
Empty so I'd run to meet your decree.
You'd know exactly how to make me beg
To give you one of my arms and a leg.
Sip me, drink me dry. Take all of my heart
And leave me to die. Just tear me apart.
It's not like you were one to be polite.
I'll know you'll get what you want anyway.
You wanted all of me and gave nothing.
I'm not your queen, but you're my tyrant King.
Black Butterflies; Sonnet 6
Keep me tied up and lonely, on a string.
No real love, no happiness. Just fake
Empty gestures for me to cling on to,
Handing out enough to keep me coming.
I often wonder why I stay around.
You don't ask me to stay. You don't care if
I go. You wouldn't see if I fell off a cliff
I think that here there no love I found.
I like to think so. I hope and I pray.
But I deceive myself in my own words.
I could go have a meeting with the birds,
I might go tell them that I'm not okay.
But you want me to play and keep smiling.
You like games, and I'm good at pretending.
Black Butterflies; Eyes Hurts
You left me to feel abandoned alone.
But why care for the girl you say you love.
As if in your heart I was nothing of.
That's how it felt when you spoke in that tone.
You smiled and said " it doesn't matter,"
You might as well have said I don't either.
This woman, whose rug you pulled from beneath her
Eyes closed, I hit the floor with a splatter
Dare not look, dare not see, my pain building,
The ache was piling up inside of me.
But if I looked more painful it would be.
I laid blindfully, eyes closed and stinging.
My head hung low. I looked as though I died.
My eyes hurt. Swollen with tears I have cried.
Black Butterflies; Sonnet 4
I had high hopes for you. Maybe too high.
I don't expect a prince. I don't want one.
But to hold my heart like the moon and sun.
Don't praise, but cherish my loving supply.
To make me feel wanted, that's all I'll need.
But you seem so thoughtless. At least of me.
Don't you ever wonder what we could be
If you just took the time to plant a seed?
I really don't think I'm asking too much.
Are you scared? Are you hiding? Open up!
Need me! I have enough to fill your cup.
If all it is you need is just my touch.
I beg that you spare me some attention.
Even pretend that I hold your affections...